Showing posts with label kids. Show all posts
Showing posts with label kids. Show all posts

Monday, April 7, 2014

Back in PB Nubians!

I am proud to announce that Stout Ranch is back in the PB Nubian goat business. We have expanded our herd with new does, new bloodlines and are due to kid at the end of May!

Stout Ranch is Proud to present 
Ochoarosa Baylee's Amata otherwise known as Summer (N1601483).
Summer's Pedigree N001614763

She is in kid to God's How Gericho (N1601483)
Gericho's Pedigree N001601483

Gericho's Linear Appraisal was an 85 and with Summer's confomration and bloodlines, we are confident that we will have another excellent generation!

Summer

Summer

2016 note... These does are no longer with us however we have 2 bucks and 7 does from champion lines and those lines stretch from coast to coast so we have the best animals and breed characteristics that any breeder would kill to have!

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Goat babies!

We are not going to have any kids this year. We lost Lilly and her kids, then Lacey lost her kid. When we lost Lilly, we had to put the remaining 3 in the same pen. At that point Lacey was pregnant and P was not.

In theory, Nubian goats are seasonal breeders. The bucks go in rut and the does start cycling in August. They will continue until about January. So at this point I have no idea is P cycled while in with Nephi or not. If she did, then we will have a big surprise in July! Why did I say in theory? Well, occasionally Nubians will cycle later or earlier and the males will go into rut or stay in rut later. My vet swears that they ONLY cycle breed from August to January. I have friends that occasionally have kids in September or November. People cannot start to know or predict the secrets of God and I think it is interesting that we keep trying!

So, with no kids due this year and one doe down, it was prefect time to increase our herd. We had planned to keep one buck as companion for Nephi and we needed one doe to replace Lilly. We drove 6 hours to a breeder that has good bloodlines and sometimes cheap prices. It was a long and uncomfortable drive with my neck still in the healing process.

When we got to her place, she first showed me a little doe, that in her opinion, had some issues. She is the youngest of 4, has ear control and a mild under bite. Being the 4th of 4, she is very small. She is a month old when we see her and she is the size of a newborn. Ear control is not considered a 'fault' during showing but many people do not want a Nubian that can move her ears. If that wasn't enough, she also has a mild under bite (think of a bulldog but she isn't that bad and her teeth don't show). Her degree of under bite is also not an official fault but many people would not buy this girl based on those two things. So the chances of this girl getting a good home are almost as small as she is. I asked her price and was surprised that she wouldn't find a home since she was almost free. Here is my catch, she has fantastic bloodlines! Did I say fantastic? I meant amazingly fantastic! Her issues are genetic but as long as she is not directly bred to another Saada buck, she won't pass those traits on to her kids. If her faults were more severe, it would be a gamble, but with this girl, it isn't a gamble. Especially with my ace in the hole; Nephi! She is the idea doe to breed to Nephi whose bloodlines have strong facial structures. We got her; meet Summer's Pearl Moon, or Pearl for short.

How can you not love that face?! As she grows, her ears will lay
flat and her bite will even out quite a bit.





She jumped up on the chair to look out the window
 with ease. This girl is going to be a handful!




Chewing on my rug

After taking Pearl, we moved on to see the other does that we had originally come to see. There were 7 doelings in 3 different barns. We immediately discarded any from barn 1 since they were too closely related to Nephi. We picked one from barn 2 and took her to barn 3 for comparison. It was funny because as we talked I got the distinct impression that this lady did not want to let me buy to girl we picked from barn 2. When I strait out asked her what was going on she said that she quoted me a price before she realized what a good milker the Mom would be and now that she knows, she can get twice the price. This little doe has 1 sister, so the money take from selling these two would be quite high (almost as much as what we paid for R's Bella!). I told her that we wanted that doeling and asked if she wanted me to pay the higher price. She said no, she quoted me a price and would stand by that price (the only honorable thing this woman has ever done and since she increased the quoted price when I bought Nephi, we are now even!). So, we have Prairie's Dawn Light.

Dawn is on the left near the door. She was dam raised for the
first 3 weeks so she is a bit skittish. We are working
hard on her friendliness.
She is very curious and extremely loud! She has great bone structure
and we are very happy to have gotten her for the original price!
I love the markings on her face, R says she has black racing stripes.
Our final adventure was finding a buck friend for Nephi. We wanted one with a different set of bloodlines so we would have more choices and combinations for breeding and we would be able to offer a wider variety of lines to people in our area that want to breed. There were only 2 barns with bucks. We went from barn 1 to barn 2 and had an idea that we wanted a buck in barn 1. As we were talking in barn 2 a little goat ran up and started chewing on my pant leg. I pushed it away and we continued to talk. We started walking back to barn 1 when this little goat showed back up and started chewing on my pants again. I pushed it away and started walking faster. I almost made it to the corner of barn 1 when the little goat shows back up and stands on my boot. I started walking and it balanced on my boot and would not get off! I pushed it off with my foot and we walked the rest of the way into barn 1 so we could look at the little black buck. He would make such a great addition to our herd. Nephi is light brown and a black buck would even us out! Perfect. Then the little goat jumped on my boot again. So I asked, whats the deal with this one? It is beautiful! She said 'Oh, he is for sale also. He is the last of 3 and is quite a bit smaller than the others.' He? He?! He! He was dark chocolate brown with black trimming and a small white spot on his head. Oh, she says he is out of a blue roan doe who is out of a blue roan buck so he will probably throw some blue roans. Blue roan like my sweet Lilly goat! Sold! Meet Helaman, our last addition to our small herd.

Nice wide chest on this boy and he is only 2 weeks old.
He is such a nice color and is very friendly.
Heleman is the first one to greet me and even though
he is the smallest, he eats the most! Isn't he a doll?!
All in all our trip was a success. I am glad that we took Pearl. Her future was uncertain and I am sure the sale barn would have been her final destination. She will blend well into our program. Dawn is a gem and has great lines and a nice broad chest. Helaman has the best look of any buck I have seen. I think he looks better than Nephi did at that age. We are excited to see how they all grow and mature. We have a herd of 6; Lacey, Nephi, P, Pearl, Dawn and Helaman. This year will be interesting!

We will breed Lacey and P to Nephi in fall. That will allow the kids a year to mature. I am excited to see what kind of babies they throw but I also want them to get big and strong first. Having 4 does will let us breed two each year and give the others a year off.

I have people lined up this year for kids but we don't have kids to sell! I hope they will wait until next year, but if not... That is the plan Heavenly Father has! 

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Goat care

I am still relatively new to owning and breeding goats and I am far from being an expert. I more every time I talk to another goat person. One thing I have learned is that there are as many different opinions on goat care, conformation, feeding, qualities and traits as there are goats on the planet. Everyone has an opinion and everyone thinks their opinion is right. It can be overwhelming to a new goat person, or even an experienced goat person. The best way to find the correct answer, sometimes there is no correct answer, is to research and go with what feels right to you and makes the most sense.

I have learned a few things over the past month or so that may be useful to someone else. First, extreme cold can be very bad. Well duh, you say. I mean to be more profound that that! When the weather turns cold, bitterly cold, it can affect our goats in many ways aside from them just being cold and shivering. As an example, cold weather can affect their rumen in a such that they are unable to properly digest their food. In a matter of days, they can drop a lot of weight and even have mineral deficiency issues. Mineral deficiencies can kill your goat very quickly and you may or may not notice that there is a problem. Our Lilly was one such victim. She was fine, in decent flesh and over a period of one hour went from acting normally to deaths door. Even with emergency vet care, she still died. Bitter cold can also cause your does to miscarry as Lacey did last week.

How does one counter this issue? I asked! One thing about me, I am not afraid to admit that I don’t know the answer and I am not ashamed to ask for help. We have a solution! But… You have to start before you have a problem. Once the cold snap starts you will be hard pressed to make a difference. You need to start preparing in fall or early winter. Obviously this year I didn’t start in early winter. Alas, all hope is not lost. As I said, hard pressed; I didn’t say impossible. We are going to do a few specific things to help our goats make it through to spring healthy and in good flesh. Please know that there is sometimes no help for a doe that miscarries and when Heavenly Father calls a goat back to heaven, she goes. Sometimes, there is nothing that you could have done differently. So before you read on, accept that.

All of these things we will next year, start in October. This year, we are staring now. We will supplement our grass hay with alfalfa. Our vet dislikes alfalfa pellets but most goat people I know feel pretty comfortable with pellets. Realizing that pellets are not made from the ‘highest quality’ hay but they are still better than nothing. They are also denser, there is less waste and pellets are easier to store. We typically mix our alfalfa pellets with our grain, which we have done but I haven’t been feeding enough. Grain is also a good for helping keep the weight on. With more weight, they can stay warm better and have a better chance of making it through the winter healthy. So our first step is to feed grain/pellets to each goat on a daily basis.

Our goats already have minerals/salt blocks. I like the blocks because they last longer and keep the goats occupied. Occasionally goats need a mineral boost over and above what they get on a daily basis. Finding a good loose mineral is important. Copper and selenium are very important for the health of goats, so check the label carefully. Occasionally you may need to supplement selenium even more. You will need to get it from your vet. I alternate between ‘Goat Mineral’ from Jeffers and ‘Golden Blend Minerals’ from Hoegger Supply. Both are spread over grain and put in the bottom of the feeder for free use by the goats.

I spoke to a friend this week that said she feeds whole corn during the winter months. Whole corn is easily digested and is packed full of protein so the goats can use it to stay warm with little digestion. It is expensive in feed stores so if you can’t get it direct from a farmer it is really not cost effective. In that case, I would stick to a good grain.

In talking to our vet, she stressed the importance of putting our hands on each goat minimum once a week. While they may look ok, they may feel thin. She told the following story: A few years ago we had a 3 time National Champion bred to a National Champion buck. She was having a hard winter so we blanketed her. She looked good so we didn’t worry about her. She kidded in early February. She had a hard labor and we had to pull both kids. She died shortly after kidding. She was a bag of bones, she was so thin and I had no idea. I assumed that since she was blanketed, she was fine. Her death was my fault because I didn’t put my hands on her. I am a vet, I know better. Not only did I lose her, but she had two bucks so I didn’t have a doeling with her traits. I failed myself and I failed her.” After that story, two things stayed with me: Put your hands on your goat every week; everyone makes mistakes.

Since our little herd took such a hit when we lost Lilly, we are purchasing 3 more goats this weekend. One buck, Nephi needs a buddy and it will enhance our ability to provide breeding services. We are also buying two doelings. We will unveil all of their pedigrees in time, but we are very excited! Nephi has some of the best sires on his papers and P will be a great producer with excellent mammary and milk production potential. The new kids will complement our current herd and will allow us to offer bloodlines that are not often seen in this part of Colorado!

Monday, October 11, 2010

Nephi and Portugal

It is once again breeding season and we have been contemplating logistics for this year. We typically spend 2 days traveling (one to take them and one to pick them up), 2 tanks of gas, $35 per doe and 2$ per doe per day boarding at the buck facility in Eastern Wyoming. Granted, he is a wonderful buck but the breeder has been in business for so long that her lines are very inbred and they are all over the area.

Our girls are from Southern Colorado lines and mixing them with Eastern Wyoming lines produces great kids. There are a few issues with this path. 1. Who will the kids be able to breed with? 2. How long can I keep paying ridiculous fees to breed each year? 3. How can I afford to buy one of her bucks - but if I do, I go back to question 1)?

What to do, what to do? I know, lets go to Eastern Nebraska to get a $600 buck at discount, throw in a $350 doeling at discount and save some money. We got both at a deep discount and did not spend over $300 for both! WOOHOO! We got to name both; check them out!

Meet our Buck:
Double Z Karim's Nephi













Meet our new doeling:
Double Z Miss Portugal












We are completely changing the breeding and lines available in Northern Colorado. We are mixing Southern Colorado lines with Eastern Nebraska lines. The kids are going to be fantastic! Check out our website for more information on these new additions, for breeding information and to reserve kids.

We will be offering limited breeding to Nephi this year and Portugal will remain dry until she matures a bit more. We are getting emails for reserving kids already! Here we go!

Post Script: For those wondering, Nephi is de-scented which means he doesn't smell terrible but he is still a buck! Bucks are nasty critters and they have terrible manners - but they are funny as heck!

Friday, June 25, 2010

Final Interview Day!

Today was our final interview day. We have one step left to approval; CORE training. We should be attending CORE training, signing our paperwork and active on July 9th. But today, today was 'the interview', you know the one where you answer questions about your past and relationships separately and confidentially... Well, after 13 years of marriage - we already knew each others answers. But it was still an interesting experience to go through again. Again, you ask - well yes, again. Read on.

We left early, stopped for doughnuts in Greeley and drove leisurely down to the LDS FS office. We arrived early intending to go to the cannery to load up on sugar and flour. We had everything filled out only to find that they are closed on Fridays! Ah, darn. We decided that we will stop by again on our way back from Arizona in a few weeks.

As we sat in the shade of the trees in the parking lot, we chatted about what we were expecting the interview to be like, what they might ask, how we felt about it. We watched K, our case worker, pull in, unload his car, reload a car, buzz around front, run inside. I commented to R that he seemed to be very over worked. He is always in a meeting, on the phone, out doing a visit, getting back from a visit. Seems like he just goes and goes and goes. I pondered out loud, “I wonder if he likes his job. I know he gets paid, I wonder if the fulfillment of making eternal families everyday makes up for all of the stress.” R assured me that K must be one of the most blessed people we will ever know. He, for a living, gets to help families come together, for eternity. Can you imagine? What an amazing thing to behold once, but to be part of and behold it again and again. I am in awe of K and his dedication to his job, beliefs and the eternal principles that we hold near and dear to our own hearts. K's sweet personality and strong testimony of the truth of what he does permeates everything around him. We feel comforted just being near him and having him help us through this process.

We met with K, finished our paperwork and went through our interviews. It was painless and actually pleasant. K helps make this process comfortable. People keep asking me how the paperwork is going and I keep saying that it is fine. They ask if we have questions, no – not really. It is funny because when I started working in Law Enforcement R and I both had to go through intense interviews, they dug into our past – deep, deep into our pasts – and I did a polygraph test, twice. Compared to that, this process is peachy! There is nothing in our past that has not already been dug through and sifted, held to light and examined. We are comfortable with who we are, the paths that have taken us to the place we stand today. We stand together, as one, united and together walk our path in life; we walk together through all things. We are very at peace with this process and our present place; we receive daily verification that we are on the right path, that there is a Birth Mother out there, somewhere for us, that we will be re-united and will be able to start our family with her help.

We left the city, did some grocery shopping and came home. I was a bit swollen when we got back, so I went to lie down. Our dear neighbors (I use the word neighbor loosely), brought us dinner. I cried – they are so thoughtful and helpful to us over the past weeks. Our neighbors, Sandy and Dan Carter live about 4 miles east and 5 miles south of us on 100 acres. They are just on the other side of ‘town’. As members of the church who share the same values and lifestyle we do, they are a blessing to us. We are learning from them and them from us. I cried from their honest care and concern for us. I cried from their ability to know we needed their help and their ability to hear and heed the spirit. We are so blessed.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Through it all

With all of the animals we have, it seems that one or two are always hurt, sick, or otherwise suffering from some ailment or other.

This the the story over the last few weeks/months:
Sky is still blind; in case you were not aware, glaucoma is not reversible. So she gets eye drops twice daily and blood pressure pill and fish oil in the evening. Being that she is only 6, we have many years to perfect our pill giving and eye dropping. One thing in Sky's credit - she is a whole lot easier to treat than Bella was when she tore her eye lid 4 years ago. Perhaps it has something to do with the 45pound dog vs. 1500 pound horse thing... Hmmm, good food for thought!

Dozer went in to the vet 2 weeks ago for a bad tummy rash. They determined that he is allergic to 'something'. Whatever that something is has yet to be determined. He was on antibiotics and benadryl three times a day for a week. The infection part of the rash is gone but he still has a rash. So Dozer gets benadryl twice daily; not that he minds daily hot dogs or cheese slices. He is up to 56.6 pounds at 2 years old. I hope he stops growing soon, but the vet said to expect another 10-15 pounds. Note to self - start working out again, specifically weight lifting!

Shigom went into the vet 4 months ago after Dozer ran into her and badly bruised her shoulder. Then Max attacked her - Yes, the horse attacked the dog! It was horrible and hences I must share my horror... I had fed Max (grain and hay) and Shigom was sneaking in the stall to eat the grain while I was brushing him. Well, he was occupied and 'Mom' was near so he was minding his manners and being the sweet 2000 pound baby I know him to be. I finished what I was doing and turned to leave. Shigom made one last attempt for a bite and Max reared up and tried to stomp on her. Luckily he missed and just knocked her over. Next thing I knew he had her in his mouth and threw her 6 feet into the air and slammed her against the barn wall. I screamed to distract Max and Shigom was yowling - a sound I have never heard before. I ran in (in hind sight that was not the smartest thing I could do but... Shigom is my sweet, sweet girl) I got Shigom out and we locked the other dogs in the unused goat pen so I could assess the damage. I fully expected a broken back, missing flesh and lots of blood. I prayed from the moment I screamed "God, please let my dog be OK, please let my dog be OK." It was the prayer of a desperate child and that is exactly how I felt. It is nothing short of a miracle and I, still today, stand all amazed - not a mark on her, no broken bones, no blood just a bruise and some swelling. Her limp went away after a few days and then of course, Dozer ran into her again (he is a bit clumsy - think of a bull dozer turning - now you know how he got his name). Now, she is limping again so she gets a pain pill once a day.

Bella punctured her inner thigh and has edema under her belly from getting struck. What happened, you ask? She stepped on a pitch fork and the the handle hit her belly and the tine of the fork punctured her thigh. So the vet came out last night to check her over. $171 later she is fine, a bit sore and getting a betadine rinse twice a day.

We vaccinated all three horses yesterday (this is when we discovered Bella's issue). We checked on them this morning and everyone was fine. Tonight, just in time for dinner, Max started having issues. He was showing neurological issues (stumbling, twitching, eyes rolling, heavy breathing). Luckily he was only having a reaction to the West Nile vaccine and not a major issue. I called our wonderful the vet yet again and we did a phone consult. With hot packs and banamine and butte he pulled out of it just fine.

Where am I headed with all of these part stories? I should have gone to vet school the way I wanted to when I was 11. I may not make any money but I sure would have saved a dollar or two! We are faced with endless crisis and endless worry and endless love for our animals. Through it all - we pray.

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We talked yesterday about how being too busy to ride and that perhaps we should sell the horses. We both just looked at each other for a moment to two and then burst out laughing. Knowing us, that is the most ridiculous idea I have ever come up with. Not quite as bad as moving to Alaska, but close. We have recommitted ourselves to living the life we want, kids or not. We live on a farm because we love the space and privacy. There is always something to do (chores) and we enjoy working on building our dream. These are some of the reasons I love our place. This is the land of my heart and the haven of my soul. Through it all - we pray




















Our second adoption interview was cancelled due to a baby being born and placement taking place. At first I was disappointed and heart broken to be pushed into the back seat yet again. But after a family consultation I realized that it is a wonderful thing; how could I have been so selfish as to miss it?! Someone is being reunited with their child! Somewhere two families are becoming one to raise and care for a chosen child of God.

I know our time will come and we will have our time to be that couple. We want so desperately to be parents and to raise and love a child. I hope that our Birth Mother is preparing and realizing that there is a plan for us, someday we will meet and renew a friendship that started long before these present moments. I am so humbled that adoption is a process that we are able to go through and that some way, some how, we will be chosen to be parents to a very special child. I hope our Birth Mother knows that we pray for her daily, even now when our placement is so far off and our paper work is not complete - we pray. Through it all - we pray.

Where ever you are, what ever your circumstance, we love you and will love you the best way we know how. Through it all - we pray


Friday, May 14, 2010

Our petting zoo and little boys

I work with a brilliant engineer named Randy; we share a cube wall. He has three grown kids and two grandsons. Whenever his grandsons come to the office with him, you will find them in my cube talking about animals, trees, bugs and other such interesting things that little boys enjoy. Nick is 5 and Nathan is 2.

On a whim, invited Randy to bring his grandsons out to our place to feed the baby goats and play with the horses. He called on Saturday afternoon and brought the boys out with their dad, Jake, and aunt, Katie, (Randy's son and daughter).

While they were here, out neighbor to the south was doing some target practice and one of the Guardians came over to say hello. He is the big white dog in the photo and his name is Rock. I thought I would share some of my favorite photos from their visit.


























I had a great time with the kids and it reminded me of our babies, all four that we have lost. Our sweet twins, I miss them so much but I am grateful for the time we had with them and the lessons we have learned since their loss. We are traveling on a path that we may not have found otherwise.

Watching these little boys renews my faith that Heavenly Father has a child waiting for us and a Birth Mother who we know from another place in time. I know that some way, some how, we will find each other and be able to start our own family through the miracle of adoption. I pray that we will be connected and be able to recognize each other.

It does my heart good to be around little children and to be reminded of their unconditional love and their thirst for knowledge.

Thursday, May 6, 2010

Changes

So many changes in the last few weeks; nothing ground breaking...

Salem, our sweet adopted kitty disappeared. We think he wandered beyond the boundary that the Guardians protect and became a kitty biscuit for the coyotes.

Ducky, our 13 year old kitty disappeared. We think the HUGE red tail hawk got her because the hawk was hanging around and Ducky never travels far. Being 13 years old, she was unable to out run a hawk.

I have to say: it is all my fault. I take full responsibility. For our adoption home study we had to provide vaccination records for each animal (no small feat when you live on a farm). As we stood in line to get the three cats vaccinated and I looked in dismay at the cost, I said the following to R: "Just watch, I am going to pay $120 for vaccinations for barn cats and in 3 weeks, they will get eaten." Sure enough, they got eaten; I will never say that again.

After 3 weeks of waiting for one or both to return home, we went to the pound to find another kitty. We still have Jasper, the spastic orange tabby given to us by Momma Sherri (R's Mom). We came home with Jake (see photo below). He is just as spastic as Jasper and since they are about the same age, they get along just fine. We are working on fattening Jake up, not for the coyotes but because he was a little on the thin side. He seems to be happy and this weekend we will allow them both to go back outside. Since Salem 'left' our rabbit population has exploded. I feel much better knowing the dog or cat ate the bunnies rather than living with guilty conscience and less ammo.

Shameless plug for our local humane society below:
We have gone to several shelters and rescues over the years but I have to say that the staff at our local Humane Society work harder than most and reap little reward. They were able to meet with us and match us to a kitty in under 30 minutes. AND they have half-price cat day (who knew?!) so Jake was only $12.50 and came with a collar, carry box and a bag of food; I think I might have paid $2.50 for the cat! We may be back in another week or two to get another kitty (3 seems to be a good number around our house).

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The babies are growing and eating more and more. They leave home next weekend. While it will be sad to see them go, I will enjoy not having to feed 3 times a day and I will actually be able to use the milk.

Our dear Phoebe left last weekend - no, no, not a coyote or hawk snack. She was purchased by the Burdick Family of Castle Rock, Colorado. She went to a show home and will be pampered.

Phoebe was our last and final tangible reminder that we lost our twins. We kept her in anticipation of having 4 mouths to feed, then we lost the twins and still had Phoebe. With her gone, I feel like we are finally turning a corner and moving forward. We had our first interview with our case worker two weeks ago and he didn't laugh at us and tell us no, so that was encouraging! We have our second interview scheduled for the end of this month and should be good to go by July.

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Sunday, April 25, 2010

Babies, babies, babies!

Both Lilly and Lacey had their kids this weekend!

Lacey had twins; Midnight Lace and Chantilly Lace. Lilly had a single doeling; Dawn Lilly. We are so lucky and they are so cute.


Stout Ranch Midnight Lace




















Stout Ranch Chantilly Lace




















Stout Ranch Dawn Lilly




















We have already sold all three to a wonderful family in Sterling who will be picking them up in 4 weeks. The Dill Family has small children who want to bottle feed the babies and can't wait until school is out so they can start.

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It feels strange to be giving them up when we have spent the last 5 months bonding to them and watching them grow inside their mothers; to witness their births and feed them and cuddle them for the next 4 weeks. It will be a sad and joyous day when they go to their new homes. I have faith that they will be well cared for and that this is the right choice to make. We can't keep them and they will have a wonderful home. As small as this heartache is for us, it provides a small taste of what Birth Mothers must go through. I have so much love and respect for the Mother who will someday choose us to raise and parent her child.


Saturday, April 10, 2010

He Lives

Occasionally the Church sends out new messages to spread the word. We enjoy these messages even as members; they are a great way for us to shore up our testimonies and remember why we are here and why we are doing the things that we are doing.


Watch a new Mormon Messages video, "He Lives " to see and hear modern-day Apostles testify that Jesus Christ is the Savior and that He lives today.

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Our first adoption meeting is scheduled for the end of the month. I am nervous. All of a sudden I am having insecurities pop up that I was not aware I had; What if they don't like us? What if we live too far out of town? What if... What if... I have to keep reminding myself that we are guided on this path and that we receive daily promptings that this is the path we are to follow. Our faith will sustain us. We know there is a Mother and Child out there for us and that some how, some time we will find each other.

Our baby goats are due in 2 weeks! It is getting closer and my excitement is growing. what kind of babies will we have? What will they look like and what will their personalities be?! I am so excited! (remind me that I said that when I am complaining of lack of sleep!

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Patience is a virtue

What a week! We went from the high 60s to the 20s over the span of a couple of days. I can tell; spring is on the way. The horses are starting to shed - it will be a very hairy spring around the Stout Ranch. We have one month left until kidding season; we bred both does and have bets going to see how many of what we will get. Robert is betting (hoping really) for 2 bucklings. That way we can take them to auction and our herd will not increase! I am betting (hoping really) for 3 babies; 2 doelings and one buckling. I would like to have more options for the does we keep. At this point there are too many variables to guess and making plans seems like a waste of time and energy. We will find out on April 24th! We are still having to be patient - since we have been waiting since November, I think we are doing splendidly!

We planted our seeds for the garden two weeks ago. We start them indoors during early March when it is too cold to put them outside. They will continue to grow in pots on the breakfast table until mid-May when it will be warm enough to put them outside. It is so fun to watch them pop up; small and fragile, struggling towards the light. In mere days they are 2-3 inches tall with big beautiful leaves. Last year, not knowing what I was doings, I over planted on some things and under planted on others. This year, I have a nice variety of everything and if all goes well with the hail and wind, we should have a nice harvest!

I was sitting here watching my seeds and thinking that they could be compared to the parable of the mustard seed and our struggle to increase our faith and share the Gospel. But as I sit here watching these tiny seeds that I planted a few short weeks ago struggle to live and grow I am reminded of our personal seeds and our personal struggles; how we can help each other's seeds to grow and thrive just by being more tolerant and understanding. We each face different struggles as couples and as individuals. We, each of us, has within us a tiny seed that struggles to live and grow and thrive. I don't know your struggles, just as you don't know mine. I also don't know the struggles of the rude man in the grocery line or the lady that cut me off on the freeway. But when I take the time to remember that we each have our own private impurities, challenges and struggles, it makes the small offences of another seem even smaller. How much easier is it then to forgive and uplift each other?!

Empathy by Kelly Miller

When empathy is learned
Our heart to another is turned
As births buds of charity
That we can comfort with clarity

From our own pain we see
And feel with deepened depth
Such that it is the seed
Of love's flower we'll not forget


It seems that all is moving very slowly on the adoption front. We turned in packet 3 almost one month ago and so far, not a word from the Case Worker or even the support staff. I suppose they are very busy and I like to imagine them working fervently on our paperwork round the clock! The reality is that there are several couples in line ahead of us and we will be learning the virtue of patience. Patience will become a dear friend by the time this is all said and done, I just hope I have enough patience to enjoy the ride.

We were talking about the process the other night and we realized (again) that it doesn't really matter how long it takes, our dear child and his/her Mother will be ready and waiting for us when the time is right. We keep having this same epiphany each time we start to get worked up about it. This is our constant struggle, our thought to keep in perspective, our seed that needs to be nurtured...

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Hafley Reunion 2009 - better late than never!

We went to California last summer for the Hafley Family reunion. It was Grandma and Grandpa's 55th wedding anniversary and Grandpa's 80th birthday. Sherri had been planning the reunion for almost 2 years and I believe that only 2 grand kids didn't make it out.

We flew out for a long weekend and left all of the animals at home, stayed in a 5 star bed and breakfast and got to catch up with the family that we love. We stayed close to where we both grew up and visited many of the places that we saw on our honeymoon. It was nice to visit our old haunts after being married for 12 years - although we did not tempt another canoe ride.

Why am I posting this so late, you may ask - well here goes... I took almost 200 photos while we were there and loaded them onto the computer when we came home. Within two days, before I could even make a back up, a virus got to them and corrupted all of the photos. I have been researching for the last 8 months on how to recover them; no luck. Everyone, even the super computer geeks, have told me that they are gone. So last night while I was up with my cold I decided to try one last time. and Voila!

Sherri and Carl - What can I say? I have the best in-laws ever!

Grandma and Grandpa still committed after 55 years of marriage.



The whole Hafley gang. We are in the top left corner with Sherri and Carl. Jasmine is on Grandpa's lap and Riley is on the floor in front. Anthony was unable to come and Jason left early.
And a couple photos of the ocean.






Our little buddy we found on the beach one morning. So cute and soft looking, he took a bite out of my leather boots!
Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. ~Hebrews 11:1